| I really have no idea where to start… I had No idea this year was going to be like this… Who new a year ago things were great between us… What happened? I have no idea… We both changed... I found this poem or whatever… I really like it... “As I look back on all that's happened...Growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, Hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold.” Wayne & I have been fighting for Months now & in a few weeks he will be back home till march when he goes to some school for a month in a half.. I wanted to try & get help & see if we could work things out... Well He doesn’t want to do any of that, he said it won’t help & will make things worse & when it’s over it’s over there isn’t left to do, but move on… I really wanted to try to work things out, BUT he isn’t willing to try, so I guess it really is over.. It hurts, but nothing I can do.. I’m not going to beg him, I guess just wait & see what happens when he comes home Now with my parents, Things WERE getting better BUT for some reason they started treating me like I’m 14 again, why do they think they can do that? I have no idea… They try to tell me I have to stay home & I can’t go out... WTF? I’m an adult not a child, did they forget that… Now on to my mother… So when I was 14 my mom & I didn’t get along at all... Sooo she would read my Diary to find things out then I would get in trouble… I didn’t say anything about it then, that’s the WHOLE reason I stopped writing in one... WELL my best Friend bought me a Journal to write my thoughts to GOD, Since I had been having such a hard time with Wayne & my family... .Well my mom & I were close & I started talking to her about something’s… Once my parents started treating me like crap I stopped talking to her, Well I normally bring the Journal with me everywhere Just in case she got a wild hair up her ass & wanted to read it. WELL Sure enough a few days ago she admitted to me that she had been reading it… WTF? I was beyond pissed.. I went off on her I didn’t care.. She had NO RIGHT to do that & her excuse was I don’t talk to her.. WELL HELLO? That’s not going to make me want to talk to you EVEN MORE… She seems to think I’ll change my tune when I have children Which I won’t, They have a Diary or Journal to write their thoughts… That’s not something I should be going through, ugh, I’m sooo Pissed at her & she doesn’t see the wrong, all she is concerned with is what I wrote… I need to move our ASAP… I’m just waiting till I find some kind of FT Job..i don’t know how much more of their crap I can take.. Other than that, things have been fine, I’m glad I have a place to go & hide too... Well I’ve started reading the Twilight books & I’m on the 3rd one… I’ll update again soon!! |
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